I do, but I think it's so easy to push it aside and say it wasn't God.  I think that God uses people for healing others (like doctors).  For instance, I feel that Stellans healing was a total God thing.  Yes the doctors performed the surgery but I feel that it was God leading them and giving them the power to do so.

I try my hardest to...There are amazing things that have happened, things that cannot be explained, things that seem to negate science, reasoning, etc.  So, I guess my answer is YES I do. 

 

I definitely believe that God can do those things, but sometimes I just think there is more to it than that. There are reasons He doesn't heal everyone, which sometimes makes me wonder why He would ever heal anyone.

I've had people tell me they are praying for healing for me, and while I am so grateful for the sentiment (and in the deepest part of my heart I would love that for myself as well) I also find myself wondering why God would ever choose to heal me when there are people in this world suffering so much worse than I am.

Like I said, my brain is kind of closed off to it.

I had a very spiritual friend the other day though who was telling me that it isn't just in God's hands - it's also in the hands of the believer. If you are closed off to the possibility, it isn't possible.

I just don't know how to make myself not be closed off to the possibility. I tend to think that everything happens for a reason, and so if sickness and suffering happen for a reason, why would healing then erase it all?

Sometimes when I hear about stories of healing, I honestly find myself wondering whether the ailment was even real to begin with. Not that people made it up, but that maybe it was something else different entirely and doctors misdiagnosed it from the beginning. So that it's not even really healing so much as human error.

Which I know is all horrible to admit, but that is where my brain goes.

That's actually a good way to look at it Laura! I have to say that I think the fact that people can get pregnant through IVF is a total miracle!

I'm not at a place spiritually right now where I believe in them.  I was brought up to believe in them, and maybe I'm just in a cynical state of mind lately, but my brain just doesn't go there either.  I believe in a higher power, I believe in God, but I think He created us, then stepped back and left us to our own free will.

i def think, like meg, that some things happen, that are unable to be explained.  defying logic, reason, medicine, and science. 

do i think it is the hand of god, asserting his will?  no. 

like you said, SIF...if god could heal...then, why are there sick, dying, and hurting believers.  for some great plan of his?  that's cruel.  why couldn't god conjure up some painless, creative way, for his people to learn lessons?

"he doesn't heal everyone, which sometimes makes me wonder why he would ever heal anyone."  brilliant point, SIF. 

another thing that gets me about miracles...the big biblical miracles.  water into wine, parting of the sea, raising of the dead, and talking burning bushes...why don't these things happen any more? 

why did god stop performing these kinds of miracles? 

i def don't think that medical procedures are miracles.  nor, do i think that the doctors are performing the handiwork of god.  we presume that to be god's work, because they act in our benefit.  and by presuming that...we are presuming to know god's will...god's plan...god's way of conducting business.  and that, to me, seems to be a pretty big presumption. 

I think that's the great thing about faith.  I can believe in something unseen. 

I agree with you Sif and when something horrible happens I do tend to question.  I think every person goes through that to some extent. 

I know that even some of the bad things that have happened in my life are little miracles.  Or at least I'm starting to realize that.  I don't want to live my life by "What ifs." 

And even though one person's pain is not a miracle to them.  The more I have learned about Endo and pain, the more I have to be thankful for and kind of kick my butt in gear.  It's kind of like, "Why am I sitting here having a pity-party while others that are going through traumatic things are living their life to the fullest?"  We learn from each other's experiences.  That in itself is a miracle to realize. :)

It is definitely something I have a mental block on. I have my faith and I believe in God and our relationship, but for some reason the miracle idea evades me. But I agree with you Sarah, sometimes I can see some of the good I've gotten out of the Endo too. I in no way think the good outweighs the bad, but there is a purpose there and it is driving me somewhere. Maybe that in and of itself is a miracle?

I just got an e-mail from someone today that told me to remember to have "mind over endo" and it kind of made me smile! Just learning to choose happiness even in the middle of pain is a miracle in and of itself.

Nikki, your comment reminded me of that old joke - a policeman pulled over a car which was weaving all over the road.  Inside the car was a priest.  Beside him on the passenger seat was an empty bottle of wine.  "Father, have you been drinking?" "Oh no, my son, I've only had water." "Then what's that bottle doing there and why can I smell wine on your breath?"  The Priest looked down at the wine bottle.  "It's a miracle!  He's done it again!"

Most definitely a miracle :)